I think it's again time to up my medication and I'm not looking forward to it. And I should go to therapy. But finding someone and squeezing it into my tight schedule does not make me happy. I have work to do, I want to do my work, I don't want to not do my work because of my head. Fundraising for the show is slow and with too much time spend on it. Now need an hour every morning to sort through everything and find new leads. Just want this whole process to be over with.ch so I can start working on other things again, Like the project Sämi asked me for or doing the al booklet for the next well done jury or preparing a few seminars at FHNW