It's just not I think I'm becoming more and more angry with my body. It is so difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I want to stop being tired. I want to get up early. I want to go to the gym. I want to do things. But it just doesn't work. And I guess it's also a matter of not feeling well mentally, a feeling that has been there for too long now. I feel like my body is dead but nevertheless still a little angry that it can't be active anymore.